Where Have I Been?

So, it's been a LONG time since I wrote anything. Why?  I don't really know. A LOT has happened in the last few years, one of them being that I became a grandfather.  Now in itself, that's not unusual, except that I never thought I would live to see it.  While my own children started coming when I was 25, all my children are well into their 30's, or even 40's, and, my health being what it is, I just assumed I'd croak before any grandkids came along. But, thankfully, that was not the case, and in September 2017, my first grandson Odin was born.  A couple years later, 2 months apart, Oskar and Oona were born.  

If you don't have kids or grandkids, you can probably never fully understand what it means. Excuse the analogy, but its a little like trying to describe sex to someone who hasn't even reached puberty.  It's not within their mindset to really grok.  (If you don't know what Grok means, look it up - it's a great word.)  But in any case, receiving Odin into my life opened my heart like nothing else I'd ever experienced.  Suddenly I had an understanding of "Unconditional Love" that had never come even with my own children. It was like exponential!  

I'm certainly not blaming my grandkids for not writing, even though it IS a little bit like falling in love, where nothing else matters. But it is a part of it, to be sure.  So what else?  Well, you might have noticed that a few other things have changed in the last few years as well, like the ongoing destruction of everything that many used to hold near and dear - Common Sense, Freedoms, Truth, Honesty, Trust, Stability, Sanity!  Or perhaps Reality has simply been revealed on a much wider scale.  However, Love & Attachment DO have a way of diverting one's attention from potentially deeper things, like the meaning and purpose of Life.  

On one level, we really DON'T know much about this reality. After all, as I've always asked, "What do you KNOW to be true?"  Is the world that we experience 'out there' any more real than the dream reality we experience while asleep?  Or is the dream reality the real world? Is any of it real?  When it comes down to it, about the only Truth you know, is that You Are, or 'something' exists which experiences 'something' else.  "You" are aware OF existing, of having a body and mind, of having experiences in a 'world'.  But the concreteness of that existence, that body and mind, that world, has no way of being confirmed, or at least not as something real or eternal.  All of it is fleeting - some faster than others. Your thoughts change from second to second; your body changes every day. (This body I have now, is CERTAINLY not the body I had 20 or 40 or 60 years ago!)  There are cycles which continuously move us through times of life, seasons of the year, emotions, life and death. Everything is moving, and "We" individually are the ever-present witness of all of it, and the only apparent continuous 'thing'. 

But over the last few years, we've "Witnessed" something way outside of our normal reality! Things we could scarcely have ever imagined -  Riots and marches around the country; a questionable worldwide pandemic; possible medical tyranny; abuses of power; the revelation of vast criminal pedophile and trafficing rings; near complete destruction of true democratic process; an incredible division between the people, to the point of states talking of secession; violent protests deemed "mostly peaceful", while true mostly peaceful gatherings are dubbed "Terrorist insurrections", and on and on and on.  Then of course you have the little things, like men can now have babies, it's a crime to call someone by the wrong pronouns, men are winning women's athletic events, and if those things aren't enough, according to experts, we are closer to World War 3, with this whole Ukraine/Russia fiasco, than we were even during the Cuban Missile Crisis in 1962!  

So what have we GAINED?  Vast unemployment and homelessness, and skyrocketing deaths from suicide, drug overdoses, and domestic violence!  Alcoholism and drug abuse - both prescription and recreational have also gone through the roof. And as I write this, the United States is experiencing massive shortages of baby formula! But it's okay, because we're sending 40 BILLION dollars to Ukraine.  

So, where am I going with all this?  Is it just a political tirade to vent your grievances?  No. Yes. Maybe. See...What DO you know for sure?  For instance, today on Sky Australia News (or something like that), they reported that Joe Biden has hired a fancy high priced lawyer to protect him from prison, in the very real possibility of Impeachment after the mid-term elections. Is it true?  I have no idea - but it's certainly not anything I've heard on American media - not that I pay much attention.  

But the WHOLE thing is exactly like being in a car wreck - where everything goes into slow motion, as your car spins around, and you wait for the inevitable to happen. But in his case, it's NOT that slow, as we've been watching it for the last few years, AND we have no idea what the Inevitable IS in this case - World War 3, United States splitting up; a worldwide totalitarian tyranny, mass starvation and death....Or, the dawning of some new world Awakening.  Or BOTH!  But the result is VERY high levels of stress, all around the world. Imagine being in a multi-year car wreck!  It just keeps spinning and spinning and spinning. 

So, what to do???  Honestly, I can only give the same suggestions I would ever give -  Remember the Center!  Who is witnessing the spinning?  To Whom do all these strangenesses arise?  What do you KNOW to be true?  Who Are YOU?  Rest in That....the I-ness, the God place, your heart-space, the Self...Do your best, and let God sort out everything else.    And remember that old blessing/curse.....May you live in interesting times.  They don't get more interesting than this!!

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